It has been a few weeks since I’ve posted here. I have moved into a new house, which is phenomenal. I have had some family business issues, and I am at a crossroads with my own company. I can’t remember sleeping more than 4 or 5 hours in a night without the aid of liquor. I’ve lost 13 lbs. without attempting diet or exercise. I definitely have not been as mentally involved in my relationships (particularly with my wife) as I should be.
I had a terrible Friday. I found out we lost the bid for a large state agency contract because we got our bid to the office 2 minutes late. 2 minutes lost us $200,000. I was angry at the state office for not allowing our bid over 2 minutes. I was angry with us for not getting the bid done earlier. I couldn’t even talk Friday night or Saturday morning.
I was in the shower Saturday morning, and had an epiphany. I know how to, at the very least, save my investment, and at best, save my company. I was so excited, I couldn’t stop talking. I got the wheels in motion immediately. I’m not sure if it was the hot water, the time I needed to think, a divine presence, or a combination of all of these. I don’t know why, at dark moments, answers come. I like to think I’m a good, moral, person, and I deserve good things to happen.
I also like to think that I was given some level of intelligence to put myself in situations that will benefit me, and that I can see the answers that many would not see.
I don’t know how it will all turn out. I have learned in the last few months that a bit of prayer can put me at ease, and that I should trust my own thoughts.
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